There is something I feel I have been hiding from you and I want to share it now to invite healing and recovery around it. I’m not sure why but I am starting to cry as I write these words. Maybe because it feels so contra-indicated to share this when I have just come through a year of great, deep, loss. This is going to be a process as healing always is. Get a cuppa tea and join me in the Red Thread Cafe? Sharing this feels risky. I wonder why that is!?
This Letter from the Red Thread Cafe is my way of reaching you wherever you are in the world and in whatever you are dealing with, to send encouragement your way. Our community is a saving grace, and I hope you have felt this way too. I hope you can have some feeling of connection and love when you’ve needed it. That is what we do here at MUSEA, our community of many muses, many lands and many hands – share the love and the access to more freedom through self-expression. We are truly grateful for you!
Red Thread Letter #866
Coming out of Hiding
There is something I feel I have been hiding from you and I want to share it now to invite healing and recovery around it. I’m not sure why but I am starting to cry as I write these words. Maybe because it feels so contra-indicated to share this when I have just come through a year of great, deep, loss.
How can we be awake with all that is happening when it can hurt so deeply to know it and feel it?
First a little context, then onto the heart of this message. I am aware of the cries in the collective. I don’t know how it works but it was part of my awakening in my twenties. I felt like how could anyone be awake and alive if they knew how much suffering there was in the world all happening at once?
After I asked that question and started making art around it, waves of compassion so strong washed over me; not just for the suffering – but specifically for those who would not choose awakeness because it was just too overwhelming. This compassion didn’t feel like something that came from me but through me. I could clearly see that being conscious was a lifetime gig and that many people would not choose it which I understood. To clarify, by conscious I do not mean enlightened. I mean as aware as you can be, given any moment in the life of your soul because you choose to be.
Discovering the Remedy and becoming Healed Enough
Intentional Creativity was given as the remedy to be able to navigate suffering without coming undone. I have been a student of suffering for 25 years. When I began to teach Intentional Creativity as a ‘method’ that others could teach, I was very clear that one of my visions was that as a community we could be healed enough not to turn from suffering because we would have tools that would enable us to know what to do to be of service while not coming undone. We would not turn our face from the devastation happening and bypass it because we feel too much and know too much. Instead, we could offer sacred space with creativity as medicine. We have been successful in this now for over ten years with tens of thousands of people throughout the world who have experienced our work offered by hundreds of our Intentional Creativity educators. #doingthework #cocreators
This painting called Catalyze was catalyzed through a healing Intentional Creativity process with one of our very own longtime Teachers Uma Joy.
Now for what I have been hiding… it’s a hidden wellspring of joy.
My joy has been largely under wraps, but now I want to dedicate my 2022 year to healing through exploring joy, happiness, causation, and celebration in the midst of whatever it is we are working with here on this planet. I haven’t felt free enough to express my desire to share this joy because there is so much suffering. I am grieving too – with three major losses this year of the three people who actually prayed for me every single day. It is not that I am without suffering and pain, but rather, I seek pleasure and potential in all the in between spaces. I allow beauty to nurture me throughout every single day. Ritually I practice Intentional Creativity as life force medicine daily without fail. This creates resiliency, vitality and direction.
Developing the Abiding Spring
As I navigated this kind of relationship with the challenges of this world, a deep abiding faithful spring of joy began to flow. (Tears again) I was set adrift as this reassuring spring led me to its source and a profound sense of knowing washed over me. A knowing that, no matter what happens I was going to be okay enough somehow, and that I could continue to devote my life force towards service with the confidence that enough resources would flow through me as I need them while I offer myself into this path. I was also comforted in knowing that I am very much interwoven in a relationship to the Divine Mother; a relationship that is so nurturing that without this connection my path could not have been sustained. I had help! Lots of help.
I have felt concerned to share my love of joy and potential because I don’t want others to feel worse or like I am bypassing seeing the really hard stuff. I am seeing it. I am learning about it. I am supporting people through it. Now I know it doesn’t make any good sense that suppressing my joy would do anybody any good, and anyone who takes my courses can see that I have the capacity to hold both feelings of grief and joy simultaneously. But the worldview I share in my letters hasn’t included as much joy, because I am truly so concerned and upset with how things are going on the planet. Yet I KNOW that I am responsible for my reaction and relationship to what is.
However, now as things are coming undone to a degree that most of us haven’t experienced before, I think I can no longer hide my joy and hope anymore. Now I think that just maybe, those of us who have the capacity for celebration need to get to it. Writing this makes me afraid that in declaring this something even worse can happen – that is how ingrained these old patterns are. As if when we share our gifts, somehow it will be snatched from us. Oh so much learning! I am holding the possibility that through sharing this joy, love will be created and woven with whatever other reactions take place. I am observing all of it with curiosity.
An example – one of our amazing team members who was editing this writing informed me about what just happened in Michigan. Then I had to cry again, oh my dear sweet world! Then I didn’t want to send this. I wanted to hide it again, because how can I speak to joy when this great tragedy has only just happened. And on it goes. I am choosing to continue with keeping this post flowing forward even though now I want to hide it. May someone who needs it find it. And my tears flow for our world and all that are suffering. Love flows out from this place.
Creating a Context in Community
So at least here, within our community, I am setting a context that this year I am intending to share more of my joy with you and in my work with those studying with us. I hope this can be useful and beneficial for you with whatever you are dealing with in your life. In no way do I want this spirit of unreasonable optimism to have you feel worse about what sucks in your life and in the world. So I am just naming that. And inviting us together to dance and find joy and the healing power of beauty every chance we get. And to know that when you are in deep sadness and sorrow, it can be held by those here who have the capacity in the moment and perhaps even alchemized through the wellspring of joy that can flow through our community. In this way, we will weave and be woven together into a new kind of tapestry. Taking turns. Together in 2022, those who choose will practice together in a mighty way. Creating the future we choose to embody in real-time, right here between us.
New Teachings emerging that are calling to be shared
The graphic ‘Causation’ is one of our teachings around being supple yet active in creating things in our lives, inviting brain change, state change, telomere lengthening, and putting the power in our hands to create transformation through causal consciousness. Not just causal mind, because the body MUST be included.
The truth is I really do not vibe with most of the teachings on how to make things happen, or manifestation, that do not take into consideration the enforced scarcity and injustice that are intentionally created to keep us locked into a dominant paradigm. Yet I do have a practice. I do have a view on how to be in alignment with creating our lives from curating consciousness. And I have been practicing it for over twenty years. This is mostly about how we ‘think, be, act, cause and create’ and not about manifesting ‘stuff’ or getting what you want or exerting will.
Give the meditation a try just to explore?
Without having any more information, because you can’t get it wrong, you could try the meditation with the graphic out on your own and just see what you notice. Choose something you are called to create, heal or resolve and then run through keywords. Hint that the Create Movement is literal, draw, dance, move your hands, breathe, etc. We need to include creativity in action, not just mental causation, but sensation so we are fully in it as co-creators. We are working with science-backed research, placebo, and experimentation to see how creativity amplifies what we create. We create all the time, we are asking for a focused level of conscious causation about how it works. Those of you who study with me have been seeing this in how literal we are working with energy in the painting – resolving knots, moving stuck stuff, inviting what wants to arise, and so on.
A Spirit of Collaboration
I am super delighted to reveal this to you today on December 1, 2021 as I turn my eyes towards what is possible for our community when we collaborate in a spirit of co-creation and unreasonable optimism. We will grieve and wail as each of us needs to, then get back up, then get back down, and so on like the rhythm of life. We aren’t going to try to avoid suffering, but rather find a new way to dance with it through strengthening our relationship with causation, particles and waves, and just the simple power of positive creating with intention. I hope you will join me for the ride in whatever way you feel called. I want to acknowledge that I know just this past week has revealed impossible sad things in our world – my heart is always with you in this honoring and attention. Yet I don’t think the pattern of suffering is going to end anytime soon – so if we can find joy in the in-between, and peace, let’s practice it together. We are going to need to find celebration.
As I close I wish to honor my Ancestors, my mothers Caron and Sue and our Elder Carmen who prayed for me every day, and for the well being of community and also each taught me to choose peace and joy. As well as my father, Gregory Davis. My father Gregory recently crossed from this pathway to the next dimension through a tragic ending. So my choice to explore happiness comes from the depth of my awareness of loss. I am still finding my language and story about how to talk about this. I am not quite there yet. Around this I may remain in hiding as long as I need to. But I did want you to know. My father also told me he prayed for me every day.
Yours in the real struggle and the real potential for healing and beauty in a collaborative community and context.
I wish we could share the cuppa together in real-time, but this quantum cafe will have to do for now.
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