Have you ever had a nudge from the Universe reminding you that she has your back? That no matter what you’re going through right now, the universe provides… I know so many who are going through hard times right now in different ways. In this era of uncertainty, I am choosing to witness the miracles, big and small, where I can. That’s what today’s Red Thread Letter is about, and I hope it can provide some inspiration or solace for your journey…
Join me for a Facebook LIVE Tomorrow at 11am PT in the Red Thread Cafe to hear what else the universe brought me, learn about our upcoming events and connect!
Initiation : 2009 by Shiloh Sophia
Past the Gate of Craving – A Call to Feral-leaning Women in an Era of Uncertainty
You may find yourself growing more restless with each day.
Are you going for long walks in the woods and winding up with flowers and moss in your hair?
Do you have thoughts floating by uninvited that you know you should not share with those at your home?
You may have an insatiable hunger that no food or drink seems to satisfy. You are just hungry, craving something you cannot name. You want to get out of your yoga pants today and so you put on your red dress, and your family just looks at you in that particular way.
There are days when the mundane of dishes, laundry and zoom calls may make you feel you are going mad. You can only find the silence you seek at midnight.
You want to run out of the house screaming, but where would you go? You don’t do it, but you think about it. Sometimes, a few times a day. You are trying soooo hard to be good.
The muttering and chattering on the social media channels make you wonder if there are others like you who see through it all – see the empty banter along with the emotional connection. Even the memes that used to make you laugh, seem empty. Do you ever ask yourself, who are these people?
You want to be near water. You want your feet in the earth. You want to put your face in the sun. You want to remember your laugh. You want to beat the drum. There was an aliveness once, a deep vivid craving to live fully and you are questioning if that is how you feel now. This may make you feel sad…
Sometimes you have dreams, and sometimes those dreams are close to prophecy – you have seen it yourself….that ideas you had are coming true now, it may even scare you. You don’t tell anyone these days what you really know.
You may feel like you are a danger to yourself and others while you are running errands in the car. You are just another masked woman retrieving fresh fruit from the produce aisle, but the eyes of the strangers make you feel a love too deep to acknowledge. You worry that they are sick, or that you are and that you are a danger to one another. You aren’t built for this kind of worry, none of us are.
You have been practicing smiling with your eyes at the elders, you have new wrinkles from trying so hard. When they wink at you, you want to cry and hug them, but instead, you just keep walking.
You may find yourself putting a white picket fence around your consciousness to try to contain it, but the wild garden of you keeps bursting out past the gate of craving and into the wild streets and the uncharted woods. You want to run.
What if instead of going out and away – you were to journey in and through? What if the gate of craving leads to the inner garden? I hear it does, you know. Those who are feral, who have been wild, then domesticated, then gone wild again stand at the gates beckoning. Do you hear them? They may call you by a secret name that even you don’t know yet.
If you go in, leave a trail of flower petals so you can find your way back. The first time you go in, it might be really dark in there, until you look around and find what you are looking for. Any of the creative acts with intention can take you in…
You WILL find what you are looking for, you know. You haven’t really left yourself even though to yourself it may look and feel like you have. The soul will never leave you, but you have to go in to find out.
Once you can travel back and forth across the veil, then you are a part of a circle of mystics. We have no formal name or address and there are no rules or guidelines or myths to abide by. Here, you initiate yourself by saying yes, no one does it for you. But we are there, to support, to witness, to hear your story, and to share ours with you. This unspoken knowing, that we are connected in the wild garden, past the gate of craving makes the rest of this bearable. In time, there is peace and joy even amidst the chaos of what is.
So if you find yourself in the era of uncertainty and are feeling lonely, I can meet you there with a cup of tea. In time you will find we are good company. We are seeking the soulful spaces and places along with you. Come now, there…there…here….Here you are.
~ Shiloh Sophia
Red Thread Letter #825
The Universe Provides – Day 13 of the Evacuation during a pandemic
I have to tell you the truth. A third evacuation is a wacky and often challenging feeling. Nothing is ‘wrong wrong’ – our house is safe – we just can’t go back yet. Essential systems like water, electric, phone, internet and roads are still impacted. This is a photo of a rose from our house, taken right before we left, and given to me by my dear friend and community member, Dr. Mary McCrystal – a sweet image I can hold in my heart until we return…
I am keeping my spirits up and staying focused on what is right in front of me each day. Right now I am focused on this, which I have poured my heart and soul into and at this point now close to 60 hours + team time. Translating in person events to online gatherings is no joke to ‘build’ out, invite to and deliver. So I am staying focused. We are so blessed to have our home and to have a place to stay and to have our kitties with us – but it is still a strange experience in pattern, routine and just having things like socks
“The universe provides” is ringing through my mind like an echo this morning. I stop and say – WHAT??? and there it is again like a song that won’t stop. “The Universe Provides” louder and louder, my consciousness wants me to get it. I stop everything, go outside into the redwoods, and I listen to get the message really clear. Then I go into the kitchen where Jonathan is making me food, and John Legend is playing and so we slow dance. And I tell him – The Universe Provides” and he just looks at me all funny like.
Because you see I don’t really believe in manifestation in the way most people talk about it and so saying something like that is not in my usual lexicon. But the truth for us, right now, is that The Universe Provides, and I am grateful.
I list for him the uncanny evidence of the past few days, including what I wrote to my community just two days ago…. When magical rose and moon and Frida socks show up as a gift from the universe. It had been a long day. I so very much wanted to put on my cowgirl boots, but I could only find one sock. Turns out when I evacuated I didn’t bring any socks. It was one of those moments where I’ve been brave all day and now I kind of wanted to cry. I was just sitting there holding my one sock in my hand.
That was when Jonathan got a sweet smile on his face…he brought me a package. The return address had the word sock in it. It was a present for me that literally just arrived. The universe and the red thread provided socks galore in that the moment. Small but large miracle. The coolest socks ever. Thank you Penelope Chandra-Shekar for being magic today, it means more than you know.
~ No longer sockless in Sonoma :-)
But…there’s more. When we got back to Musea late last night we discovered several amazing baskets of food from a woman’s garden – a woman I am not sure that I have met before. She is in a class of ours and she worked together with a staff member to bring us this basket. Filled with food from her garden. Honey, Granola, Lavender, Mint, Kale, and all manner of herbs and spices – just so much food. All tied with red threads. To list everything in that care basket is astonishing. I put the flowers on my altar. Jonathan is making food with her garden gifts. We were totally blessed and amazed. I am eating the granola right now. I am making tea today with her offering.
And then today something else came. Yep. I know… And I was literally just feeling all blue because I didn’t have what I wanted to wear today. I wanted to wear something beautiful and flowing – because I am going into a 4 day soul quest to film my new offering, LEGEND. I wanted to start with the right outfit and feeling and braid my hair under the trees. But I am out of clothes. How will I film with no clean flowing clothes? To say nothing of underwear or bras. I could go to the laundry I know – but being in a pandemic makes that not so desirable when I haven’t even had my toes or hair done since February.
I will tell you this one thing about this third package during my Facebook Live tomorrow at 11am PT in the Red Thread Cafe. I had unpacked almost everything in the magic box, or so I thought. Then, a necklace of the Virgin Mary fell out… and I was like, Oh. Okay. This is you. You want me to know this today – The Universe Provides.
I know saying the universe provides can sometimes feel like a cliché when so many are having a hard time. So I am shy to even share this gifting to us – but if we cannot acknowledge the bounty when it is here – I am not sure that is a very good thing. Sue used to say there’s nothing wrong with life, it’s just how we live it. So when the universe is providing, I plan to acknowledge it. Openly. The field is conspiring and my community is letting me know, I am loved. I am sending my love back to you.
With so much gratitude,
This is what I’m most excited about right now – bringing an all new Legend Cosmic Cowgirls Course – MYSTIC – to the VIVID 2020 Virtual Gathering. This will be an adventure into the cosmos like you’ve never experienced before. Even if you’ve done Legend in a prior year, you are invited to hop aboard the Mothership and join us!