Just who would I be,
if I wasn’t being the me,
that was sold to me to be,
in order to be
the very best me?
Today. Today she felt ready.
She felt complete with doing things to look good.
Done, oh so done, with overly productive schedules.
Worn out with goals that expanded life, but not the heart.
She was no longer amused with inspired action steps.
The over-achiever concept felt like walking
in cowgirl boots that didn’t fit.
She didn’t want to be original
at the cost of seeing everyone else
as ordinary in contrast.
She didn’t want to win, at all, or be first.
She wondered where that idea had been planted,
but quickly gave up on the futility of reasons
or shaming whoever might have invited her
to being more than she was already.
Enough. Already.
I am. Enough. Already.
Today she felt ready for new way of being.
One that wasn’t about getting ahead or behind.
The criteria for success had run aground.
She wondered what would happen
if she wasn’t striving or straddling or pushing?
Who would she be without worrying about ‘getting out there’
Would beauty come her way, or would it all collapse?
She had to take the risk.
She even let go of her will,
and what she thought she wanted to see happen.
Instead she saw something much more exciting:
She saw adventure ahead
and could smell new stories on the horizon…
That was enough, for today.
She thought:
Just who would I be,
if I wasn’t being the me,
that was sold to me to be,
in order to be
the very best me?
Shiloh Sophia
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Inspired by and for Julie, Elizabeth, RosaMaria and Semerit of the
Radiant Women’s Entrepreneur Circle
Painting : She Who Transforms Lives Into Legends
(one of first of the 13 step paintings, originally called Lupe Max – and part of the 33 teaching paintings.)
Here I am at my recent art opening with Spirit Warrior and Buffalo woman, leaders in our community for the past 9 years.
UPCOMING EVENTS
New Moon Blessings Dear One!
And now a few things I love to share with you – not effortless, because I still have to show up – yet in the flow of my gifts!
A few presents coming your way for freeeeee….
Red Thread Connect – Community Calls for Women. You are invited to join the Intentional Creativity community for a series of free calls designed to support women right where they are on their path. Our next call is in two weeks!
A beautiful Creative Retreat with Artist Galia Alena and inspiring working artists offering lessons on mixed media, art journaling, creative processes, techniques & more, including me :) I love the session I am teaching on the right and left brain and how to access that space of pure flow…
Join the FREE fb group called Red Thread Cafe Classroom for the Global Women of Intentional Creativity – this is our online community where we gather and create, share stories and inquiries and so much more!
Muse Days Summer Classes – in person
Join me at Cosmic Cowgirls Ranch in Sonoma CA with Mandisa Amber.
Daylong classes available in June, July & August. Our theme is Re-Wild your MUSE, paint, play and eat cake! Dancing will happen
Learn more about MUSE DAYS
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ALCHEMIST’S BRUSH
About the ALCHEMIST’S Brush art show – we will be sending out details so you can see the show very soon. Our opening was amazing, and we are still in recovery mode so we apologize for the delay! There is more to share!
And exciting news that Jonathan, my husband, who my co-lead for PRISM Leadership Lab is not only co-leading but also decided to paint on camera with me for the first time! There are a few more days to register and it is for men and women! www.prismleadershiplab.com
Dear One,
What are you worn out with? Tired of? I feel sometimes like we have been ‘sold a bill of goods’ about what we are supposed to be doing. And then even our rebellion against the supposed to be, is in reaction to something. Getting free of it isn’t easy. But it is worth it. Inside, somewhere there is more freedom to be who who naturally are. Where are we all headed anyway? And how do we do it if things are falling apart in our sweet world?
Part of what I know to do during times when I am evaluating everything, again, is to write, and to paint. That comes as no surprise right? But also do some work and ritual around laying down ways that I have been being. I gather women together to be in circle, as part of my personal practice and offering. And I write and paint through all of it – the recent suicides and shootings are part of a collective grief I struggle with – to know how to be. It is madness.
You may also ask yourself this: Do I get to have a great life, when the world is coming apart? The paradox can be deafening. My ‘first world’ problems seem like nothing in comparison, but they are mine.
You might have noticed in a few emails I keep talking about big news that I will share with you, but then I don’t. I have been working with Jonathan on a few projects for months that end up not happening…as in buying a house and a gallery in Santa Fe, falling through, then buying another food related business, that we have chosen to not go forward with, both things we thought we would be doing right now and wanted to do, but instead, we are right where we are. I had hoped to create a different business model where I am not spending so much time online. So.
We were disappointed, but we also just had my big show so were feeling full and happy with friends and family. Once every guest was gone, and the doors were closed we sat with ourselves and wondered what to do – to rest – to recover – to dream. So we went to the lake, a lake we have never been to, rented a boat and went skinny dipping and picnicking. #pleasurepause and reflect.
You never know what is going to happen, you show up, and see what happens. In our personal lives, if we only say the good things are in alignment and then challenging experiences aren’t, we are missing a lot of the party. So I am in a process of letting go of old stories and opening to being ready for what’s new. Jonathan is letting go of old stories too – by painting with me on camera for PRISM! That is so awesome to paint side by side with my love as our offering to train leaders to lead in coherence with the beauty of creation.
Today, after the Red Thread Connect call, I will be at the easel, barefoot in a sundress with a glass of rose’. My face is spotted with my 48 years, my belly is round, my eyes are weary with bad news around the world, and still my heart is centered within me.
I had the thought while at the lake, a radical thought – what does it look like if I choose not to continue to try to succeed? What if I was free from the idea of success? What does my life look like then? How about you? I don’t know that I can get free from the idea honestly, but asking the question sure does spark some deeper inquiries that feel delicious.
In each moment there is a chance to choose – to let the love in, let the beauty in, and not brace against it. So, I am. Sending love where you are, from where I am, along the red thread.
With a splash,
rose colored love glasses
Contact Information
Cosmic Cowgirls ~ 75 Fremont Drive, Sonoma, California 95476
Inquiries: Shiloh@ShilohSophiaStudios.com
Customer Service: Support@ShilohSophiaStudios.com
May LOVE be at the CENTER of all CHOICES
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