Red Thread Letter #892
Mysteries of the Heart
Freedom, by Shiloh Sophia
The unsolved mysteries
of the heart are always present
It doesn’t matter how many times
we have been loved or been hurt
Still, the heart is a grand mystery
We cannot control it
we cannot make it
do what we want
We cannot predict what
it will feel or see
But there is one thing
we can do
We can listen to our heart
and what it has to say
We can listen to the hearts
of those around us
We can be a healing presence
from one another and the earth
We can practice
falling in love with mystery,
in the infiniteness of not knowing
When we stop trying
to figure it out
we can find freedom
If we listen to our heart
our heart will listen to us
This is the journey of a lifetime
and our heart is the guide
How blessed are we
to be able to listen closely
and lean into love
Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere.
They are in each other all along.
Just a week after my anniversary with Jonathan, I have been deep into matters of the heart. Lots of tears, lots of hope, lots of gratitude. You have likely heard some of my story, but I was married before and so was he. We were both scared to say yes to one another, but we did and we are so grateful that we did.
I think sometimes when life is so hard and our hearts have been so impacted by so much going on around us – we try to wall up our heart space. To think we can protect ourselves from falling in love again – whether that be a lover or a friend. But protecting ourselves from loving doesn’t work either. We regret that withholding and eventually realize we wasted time holding back.
Let’s not withhold love. Let’s love. When Jonathan and I first met there was a bit of time when we weren’t going to make it. My mom, wise many-times married woman that she was – told me that if I didn’t give him all of my love I wouldn’t see who he was. Hum. Right. But how could I, if we hadn’t established trust? Somehow I found a way – the thought of losing him was worse than the thought of not trying and being hurt. So here we are. 8 years of marriage later and 10 years of relationship later and it gets better every day. Now I know it isn’t like this for everyone and not like this for us ALL the time. But today, I just wanted to share some love with you.
When true love is present, there is also true freedom. I feel that for myself and I want that for all of us.
I am in the gallery today with Jonathan. We take turns because I have a lot of calls today, so we just weave in and out…
Sending love along the red thread from my happy heart to yours.