Uncertainty is Coming to Tea #846

Dear Ones,

I am thinking of you today. I woke up with this message in my soul a few days ago and wanted to share it with you. New Moon Greetings to each of you…

 

Uncertainty has a cadence to it

We don’t know the dance steps

We say we are unfamiliar with

just how this particular time feels

Yes what is happening now

is proportionately large

and experientially new

Yet feeling uncertain is familiar

 

A mother who is with child

has felt uncertainty

in bringing her child to term

and the birth itself

this

feels so uncertain

 

Any one of us who has sat beside

a loved one crossing the veil

and witnessed the death itself

knows this cannot be planned and

this

feels so uncertain

 

All of us who fell in love,

the first time and every time

have felt this feeling of falling

with no bottom to the fall in sight

We fear we might

lose our heart to another

and find someone else’s heart

in our own

this

feels so uncertain

 

Anyone tracking the fragility

and power of earth, water, air, fire

all the creatures, and the outcome

this

feels so uncertain

Anyone who has braved

having a business

worked on a cause to care for

or moves in activism knows

this

feels so uncertain

 

Any one of us who has faced

a life-threatening disease

or gone to war has felt the threat and

this

feels so uncertain

 

Any one of us who has felt

food or home insecurity

or has had our safety threatened

on a consistent basis

this

feels so uncertain

 

The list goes on and on

We are only certain

that uncertainty is our meditation

in self-compassion and

global compassion

 

Uncertainty is our companion

Feeling so uncertain isn’t new for us

The levels of fear around big events like

birth, death, love, and survival

make for an uncertain experience

here on earth,

our human being-ness

this

feels so uncertain

 

Leaning into uncertainty

so that it isn’t translated

to stress or fear is part of our

work at this time

You already know all of this

 

Yet I am here with an encouraging word

that we can unvillainize uncertainty

How we HOLD uncertainty in our body

is our choice at times.

And at times we can design a way

to be with it, a practice for tending

our precious lives and loves

 

What would become possible

if we stopped making uncertainty

something to be avoided?

A problem to be solved

I don’t think it is going away

anytime soon

 

I am making friends with uncertainty

Like everything I love and everything I fear;

I am inviting uncertainty to tea.

 

This means I slow down,

become present,

move my body

and make time to create daily

I connect with love as a lifeline

 

After tea,

we will start with a slow dance

so I can get to know uncertainty better

Uncertainty has truly been

a constant companion

I think many of us have idolized

security and normalcy

and even trust.

Then any time it isn’t how we want it

we make it all wrong

I think it MIGHT be time

to change our approach.

To CHOOSE our approach

 

Perhaps you already have?

Or maybe you started today

and this message

is your invitation?

Or you will extend an invitation

or wisdom to us.

What are you doing to

be with such uncertainty?

 

My prescription? (not that you asked lol)

 

Choose a project that is bigger than your fear

something you can truly

put your heart and body into

and use it as a discipline

Go to it with the work of intention

INFUSE your CREATIONS

with YOUR INTENTIONS

Big doesn’t mean big in size or scope.

Big means it moves you within your very soul.

~ Shiloh Sophia

 

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Personal Update

For me, I know today that after a month-long vigil honoring my mother Caron in April, and after seven years of significant deaths, as well as the annual Northern California fires that cause me to leave my home over and over, and a business that goes up and down with over a year and three months of being “closed”, I am making friends with this “feeling”.

This “having tea with uncertainty” is my new devotion, a devotion at the level of ritual. I refuse to let it run my body electric, and instead, I choose to dance with it and have tea with it. To move with it and be still with it.

Recently I decided I wasn’t going to have a Summer riddled by the fear of what might happen. I asked myself what I wanted to FEEL instead of Fear. And for me, it was fun, yep just FUN I want to FEEL FUN. Now it is my job to bring the fun. As soon as it came to me I started.

Jonathan and I had a picnic by the Napa River at sunset and I watched the sun come up and I wrote this message down for you.

This is my beginning and it still feels so uncertain but I am welcoming the movement of energy through me of…

Moving from

fear to love

fear to love

fear to love

That doesn’t mean that there aren’t things to fear. I know there are. This means making a distinction in my body, energy, heart and mind about what fear is vs. uncertainty.

Sending love along the red thread from my heart to yours,

In Kinship,